My desire to have you cannot be subdued. I spend most of my time alone in silence: Necessarily true. You used to dream of me every night frozen in fear. Of what? You cannot say for it is too near to my heart and you removed your ear. I will tell you dear of what I've been frozen in fear  of for the past five years. At first it was losing you and it partially still is. I was afraid that you'd leave me and after you did i was afraid that you'd die or that id change and not love you as i once did. I'm scared I'll forget you as you were and that i don't know you as i once did. I'm worried I'll never see or speak to you again. But most of all i know in my heart that I'll never love another as i have loved you: Necessarily true. But thats not what I'm scared of its the fact that my future is no longer uncertain. I think we welcome death and the unknown but what scares me most is the inevitably lonely life that I'm already living.