Lacing the pages of library books with medicine. Passing children on the street with cigarettes. Fighting with family members. Injecting with my loved ones in the next room. What else makes me want to kill myself. Looking at myself in the mirror. Showering twice a week. Hearing from you once a year. Flooding facebook with cries for help. So called friends stab me in the back. All i do is nothing, all day, every day. Eating other people's food. Really can't fall asleep because I'm remembering painful memories. Writing self pitying poetry. Masterbaiting to memory.