That was the last time i felt anything. That was the last time i really knew who i was. Because for the first time i knew what my purpose was. For the first time i could do anything and it felt right. This is the last time that i hurt myself. This is the last time that i write about walking down to the ocean that night. In the frightening rain. That was the only time I've tried to kill myself. It was the last time that i felt anything. It was the last time i really knew who i was. Or am.